Knife party

I start recording some of our conversations because I was looking for some escape of this stupid situation. She was really aggressive some times with me and didn't like it.

Terror

I couldn't leave my house any more without my computer because she was threatening me all the time to throw it out of the window.
I felt stress all the time. I was getting paranoid. Day time I was scared about conflicts, night time I was scared about my life. Some times I couldn't sleep. She was threatening to kill me or cut my penis. I use to block the door in the bed room or sleep in a living room.
At least I was not stressed if I'm not home if my laptop was with me. So she couldn't terrorise me about braking my laptop.

Less rights than a dog have

I remember very well one issue about my exercises. I use to go about 3 times per week for jogging on the beach and having some exercises. All the time I went in there I had a problems with my girlfriend. Why I'm too late, why I'm to early to come, why I need to go all the time after 7 pm.

It was in December 2014. The time I came home she attack me again. She was jealous like always and she suspect me again with something.

After some minute of accuses for me she said directly: "I don't want to to go out for exercises. You can make exercises at home."
So. One girl who was depending on me completely was willing to have absolute control of me. That time I thought she's out of mind.  She was feeling complete ownership for me even I was not very tolerant person.
I was ready to cry that time. Why I have to fight for my simple rights every day? Why I have to have arguments, conflicts, fights... Why I have to spend my energy to protect myself after I'm struggling whole day to find a money?
So awful feeling.